Overcoming Doubt

I may have written about this in the past (pretty sure I did but I'm not taking the time to verify) and that's okay. It's worth revisiting because it is something everyone deals with and it is something that I have had stirred up in the past few weeks. Doubt.  Wondering whether I will receive a supernatural healing so I don't have to have a mastectomy. Wondering whether I will finally get a clean bill of health instead of being told that this Stage 4 disease is not curable but treatable, etc.

I was talking with a friend on Sunday who was encouraging me (she thinks I was the one encouraging her but little does she know God had it working BOTH ways). Anyway, I was telling her that the reason that my faith is where it is at is because I have seen God do some amazing things in my life & in those near me.  Because I have journaled about several experiences, I was able to recall these acts of compassion from God.  With the talk about the mastectomy surgery lately, I have had feelings of doubt stirred up and I don't like them. in fact, I HATE them.  But instead of allowing them to debilitate me so that I can't function or feel helpless, I have turned to my faith in God, my savior Jesus Christ to dissipate all the junk...the doubt.

I reread "How to Overcome Doubt" by Andrew Wommack because I had it printed out. You can read it here.  And I had to laugh because I remembered a lot of it but there were parts that really jumped out at me and helped me grasp hold of the doubt, the fear, & I'm happy to say that God is helping me kick it out.  Even John the Baptist, a man who studied God's word, dedicated his life to preparing the way for God's Son Jesus to come and do his work, even John had doubt.  Anyone can doubt but the change of getting rid of the doubt happens when we put our eyes back in God's word, back on the one who can change things & who makes a difference.

Wommack states, "Overcoming doubt isn't just about feeling better; it's about getting back into faith that only comes from the Word of God (Romans 10:17)."
Romans 10:17  Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word about Christ.

I am reminded that I must "come back to the place where God's Word is more real to me that anything I can see, taste, hear, smell, or even feel.  When in doubt, I must refer back to the Word of God just the way Jesus told John the Baptist to do.  And I must get my faith so rooted in God's Word alone that I can withstand a hurricane (which this disease feels like at times.)

God has sustained me before, he has shared with me, some of the promises I believe he has for my life and he is not a liar. He is and will continue to take care of me.  This doubt has to leave, the fear that I may never get a clean bill of health has to leave. God has not given me a spirit of fear but rather of love, power, and a sound mind.  His word says these things & I trust his word as TRUTH.  So I stand, firm in his arms, I stand against this disease. I stand!

I had some time to myself with no one around yesterday and I took the opportunity to pray, to cry out to God, to YELL a little and cry a little and then once I had that out, I was able to fix my eyes on the cross again.  I am so grateful that God can handle my crazy emotions and not only can he handle them but he can help me to get focused again.  Praise to the One true God, his love endures forever!
Psalm 136:1-26

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good.
His love endures forever.
2 Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.
3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.

4 to him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.
5 who by his understanding made the heavens,
His love endures forever.
6 who spread out the earth upon the waters,
His love endures forever.
7 who made the great lights—
His love endures forever.
8 the sun to govern the day,
His love endures forever.
9 the moon and stars to govern the night;
His love endures forever.

10 to him who struck down the firstborn of Egypt
His love endures forever.
11 and brought Israel out from among them
His love endures forever.
12 with a mighty hand and outstretched arm;
His love endures forever.

13 to him who divided the Red Sea[a] asunder
His love endures forever.
14 and brought Israel through the midst of it,
His love endures forever.
15 but swept Pharaoh and his army into the Red Sea;
His love endures forever.

16 to him who led his people through the wilderness;
His love endures forever.

17 to him who struck down great kings,
His love endures forever.
18 and killed mighty kings—
His love endures forever.
19 Sihon king of the Amorites
His love endures forever.
20 and Og king of Bashan—
His love endures forever.
21 and gave their land as an inheritance,
His love endures forever.
22 an inheritance to his servant Israel.
His love endures forever.

23 He remembered us in our low estate
His love endures forever.
24 and freed us from our enemies.
His love endures forever.
25 He gives food to every creature.
His love endures forever.

26 Give thanks to the God of heaven.
His love endures forever.

God has a relentless love for me (and you too!)  Read the definition and realize how awesome that is!

re·lent·less

 adjective \-ləs\

: continuing without becoming weaker, less severe, etc.